Be Brave & Break.

Either you will
go through this door
or you will not go through.
 
If you go through
there is always the risk
of remembering your name.
 
Things look at you doubly
and you must look back
and let them happen.
 
If you do not go through
it is possible
 
to live worthily
to maintain your attitudes
to hold your position
to die bravely
 
but much will blind you,
much will evade you,
at what cost who knows?
 
The door itself
makes no promises.
It is only a door.
 
~ Adrienne Rich

 

Perhaps it is true, that we really have crossed the threshold together. For it seems, even in the midst of a certain mass scale monumental chaos, there is a rising. A wave of awareness has erupted from destruction with wet anticipation of pragmatic, passionate pioneers who seem to be navigating these new waters with a certain nonchalance.

 

The balancing act of our future weighs upon intelligent empathetic awareness, that is, the consciousness of the collective mind. This an interesting time, to say the least.

 

Who are we really? And what the hell is going on?

 

In the last minute of the evolutionary calendar, we are the humans born at the pivot; we are the bandaid babies of human history here to make amends to our ancestral angst.

Our purpose is to turn the wheel.

 

It seems only natural in such a potent and exciting time that, the change who has ripped up our reefs, forests and future is the same one tearing at the sinew of our delicate sense of selves. For years now, conversations have traversed themes of the uprooted; break ups, break downs, career loss, death, disease and a general all consuming exhaustion. Life, is tireless and yet; it is also relentlessly rejuvenating. Like a life spa, we are peeling off the dead skin of our outgrown selves.

 

It is no longer relevant, the idea of being ‘born ahead of our time’. We are all plump and ready to fall from the tree, even in the discomfort of a heavy responsibility; we are destined to be squashed beneath the feet of feeling and become the wine of a new day. This is an age of thresholds. Moments of passage are presenting themselves like potent red flags of life altering moments; invisible doors between known and unknown and they, almost always, involve the risk.

Are we are willing to lose it all, to find it all?

 

I don’t know what compelled me to write this piece. Perhaps as a salve to my own mind, a reminder to move myself to connect, when the overwhelm is beckoning me to withdraw. Loneliness can sometimes take us by surprise, from one moment of fulfilment in our lives and relationships to a sudden and all consuming sense of isolation and dissonance to it all. Feelings often make no sense. Which makes me wonder

 

How is it possible we can feel more alone in a sea of people than in our own company?

 

Living in a time of unforeseen loss, death and impeding destruction is forcing us to see and decide, what holds true meaning for us. We are asked to let go of the dross that is dragging us down. Living in a long, strung out moment, of near death experience (of our planet and every species on it); it is safe to say, this is a whole new psychology we are dealing with.

It is deeply personal and yet absolutely universal.

 

When we stopped recognising ourselves in nature, we stopped recognising ourselves. Without knowing ourselves, we just drift along the currents of culture devoid meaning and numb to our own magnificence. We have forgetten, what it truly means to be alive.

 

 

“Our calling is where our deepest gladness and the world’s hunger meet”.

Frederick Buechner

 

Bill Plotkin recently opened a new window in my thoughts in his incredible book Soulcraft; the cause of the disharmony - the root of it all - is a deep and all consuming sense of grief. What what lost? It was our purpose.

 

“The rarity of finding sacred work is at the root of our Western despair and sorrow. When not acknowledged and embraced, our grief is acted out through violence, against ourselves (e.g. addictions, suicide, masochism), each other (sadism, racism, sexism, war, child abuse, ethnic cleansing), and the environment (e.g., toxic waste, resource depletion, species extinction, forest destruction, environmental degradation)… by consciously honouring our grief - the absence of vision and sacred work - we take our first steps towards discovery and personal fulfilment. We begin the return of our true nature.”

  

The thresholds that keep presenting themselves in this age are always openings. Deep resonant callings of our personal dreams and the unfolding, the essence, of our individual becoming. We must take the steps towards reclaiming our unique purpose as an essential reality, not only for our own fulfilment but as the only way; to stabilise the worlds unsteady emotional turmoil. We have all heard this theory before, but.... has it ever been more critical to ‘follow your bliss’?

 

“Each of us is born with a treasure, an essence, a seed of quiescent potential, secreted for safekeeping in the centre of our being. This treasure, this personally quality, power, talent, or gift (or set of such qualities), is ours to develop, embody and offer to our communities through acts of service - our contributions to a more diverse, vital and evolved world. Our personal destiny is to become that treasure through our actions.”

 

So use the turmoil as a testament to the absolute and undeniable wonder of what it is to be alive at this time in human history. 

 

What lies on the other side of your fear?

What will you dare become?

 

 

 

 

 References:

Soulcraft by Bill Plotkins

 

 

 

 


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